Zach is taking a nap in my bed right now. No matter what he says, he's adorable. =)

I got off work early today because of the rain. That makes me happy. I got to ride the carousel, which is up and running by the way, and that was fun. I rode a stick with snakes on it. Ben rode a capybara. Everyone should come and ride it, because it really is tons o' fun.

Bouncefest was yesterday.

I came up with an idea for some pictures for photography. Ben and I were playing with Jax (Jacks?), and I started spinning them and they looked really cool, so I'm going to get some black paper or posterboard and put it under the glass we were spinning them on and take pictures of it. I might use a flash too, so the light will reflect in a fun way. It'll probably turn out crappy, but it's worth a shot.

It's raining pretty hard right now. Today would have been a perfect day for a rainy-day picnic. Too bad I had to work.

No, seriously, he's adorable.

Grant reads this. I had no idea. Apparently I traumatized him like no other, and for that- I only slightly apologize. He's a fun kid though, and I like him. Yay for having him in my film art, or as he likes to call it "movie watching" class. He's the cooooolest.

I just applied online to Walgreens. I hope I get a job. I'm pooooor, so I will work there during the week, and at the zoo on the weekends. Mike says that they're flexible, so I can get most of October off to work at Boo at the Zoo. It's my FAVORITE time of year, and I really can't wait to work it!** Let's just hope that no one has sex in the barn this year. What is the world coming to??
...two bucks says someone gives it up in the train tunnel...

Has anyone noticed all the dead butterflies?? Zach and I decided last night that it's because Mars has been so close. The martians are killing our butterfly population. Bastards. They're also breeding flies. They are EVERYWHERE at RCC. I killed two today with my shoes. I felt no guilt.

Here I am.....rock you like a hurricane.

**"Work it" like Jessica on her corner. Ow ow!

I bought a fancy camera for photography yesterday. It was expensive, but I don't care. It's gonna be a lot of fun.

Did you know that the last showing of a movie was at 9:55 last night? Why should you care? I think we stood Mike Hagan up but unintentionally. Miscommunication and unorganization were yesterday's words of the day.

Suzie doesn't exist anymore. She only exists through away messages and sporadic blogs. This makes me sad. I miss Suzie.

You know who else I miss? Last year's Richland kids, like BJ, Jared, Sean, and Dan. Chrissy is a given miss, but she was only a temporary Richland kid. Now she goes to a real school....sellout. I'm kidding! I'll be there next year if RCC doesn't steal my soul between now and then.

Speaking of sellouts- Ben eats meat now...chicken at least. He and I were vegetarian pals. I don't know what to say now. Perhaps I'll light a candle in memory of what was. Moment of silence.......now.


I just heard a sound...
I know what it is! It's the sound of me finally breaking away from my mother. I opened a checking account today. I know that most of you already have one and are probably like, "that's neat, Sandra, that really is", but this is a big deal for me. I left the house this morning, not telling her what I was doing, and came back and wrote her a check for some money I owed her. I think she's wallowing downstairs right now. Maybe that's another sound I hear...wallowwallow. "You're growing up too fast," she said. I'm thinking to myself, "it's about damned time". Today is a great day so far.

Zach and I are creepy, but I like it.

*wiggle*

School so far has been pretty great. I have a feeling this semester is gonna be super easy. My bad habit of skipping class is already kicking in though- who didn't go to math on Friday?? Mike and me. We're bad, but it's ok. I've known the slope of a line for lord knows how long.

EEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

I am talking to Renee Speckman! I haven't talked to her in FOREVER. Yay!! I miss her so much. She's the coolest, yo. I want to visit her soon. I'll visit her and Jessica like last year- trip to C-dale anyone?? Yay. I'm gonna hook her up with Cory Hooper, yes I am! =)

I'm dyeing my hair right now. We'll see how that goes.

Zach's penis's name is Gustav the Russian piano player, just so you know...

I feel dirty, do you?

Sean wants to buy Zach and me a cherub candle holder....if you can fit yourself in it and give it to us- go for it!! =)

We watched Magnolia last night. It was alright. The best part was that one of Antonio's pieces from last year was in it, so we were reminded of him the whole time. It was an interesting movie, but it just seemed like it was trying TOO hard to link a lot of stories together and make them coincidental. Meh.

I have homework to do tonight...that's bunk! I don't want to do it, but I will- I'm a good student this year...so far anyway. =)

On that note- I'M NOT JOINING THE SPEECH TEAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

eff heads....but I luv them

The wedding was awesome! Gep and Amy are the cutest couple ever- EVER. I had a lot of fun last night. Highlights: Zach was looking really hott in his tux, his dad creeps Chrissy out, I really missed those Davis boys, the Imperial March is forever in my head, Aaron has an ugly tie, and Bob gave me his flower. Good times, yo.

Gretchen's last day is Tuesday. She's going to Chicago to go to cooking school. She's gonna be a chef- isn't that awesome?? Anyway- today was our last day working together. =( I'm gonna miss her a bunch. Even though she sorta came on to me, totally serious-like, the last time I worked with her- I still love her and will visit her sometime....with Zach. =)

School starts tomorrow. Summer went by crazy-fast. It was fun, but too too fast.

Know what else is tomorrow?!?! Zach's and my 6-month anniversary, that's what! Isn't that insane? Neither of us have anything planned- I just got him stuff, even though he doesn't know that. We've only "fought" one time ever, and just recently had a "moment". I put those in quotes because that's not really what they were, just what they probably should have been. Ergo- our relationship has been peachy keen, and I like that. I heart Zach...he's my favourite. He's so much my favourite that he gets to be British.

yay

I'll see some of you kids at school tomorrow- yikes!!

PS. Read Sean's blog- I peed, it's so funny. We'll miss him, too, now that he's in Champaign. Awww.

Gep and Amy are getting married today!!!

Yay!

Everything is fantastic. It's so fantastic, it's super fantastic. I don't know how on earth I got so lucky. I think I overreacted so much because I was afraid of what would happen if I "explained" myself. I put that in quotations because I suck at explaining. I suck at talking. For me, things would have been so much easier if I could have written it out- but that wasn't an option thanks to a very persistant, very stubborn, very caring, very understanding, and very sweet boyfriend. The exact opposite of what I feared happened. I don't know anyone else in the world who would have had the same reaction, but that's why I hearts the Zach Schultz- he's not your typical boy. I'm not your typical girl. Put us together and we're like a peanut butter and pickle sandwich- no one gets it but the sandwich, and yet it's oddly satisfying. Creepy analogy, I know.
So where does this put us now? Not where we were, and not where I thought we'd be- we're that sandwich without the crust, because seriously- who wants to eat something called "crust"?

I'm content. If I were a dog I'd be sleeping on my back with my legs sprawled in an un-ladylike fashion.
I'm pretty sure that could be arranged.

Semi-scratch most of the last blog. I've been thinking way too much about EVERYTHING. I don't know. Do I crave drama? I think so. I'm a complicated individual. I think I just need variety and constant movement- no routines. Gaaaah!! I can't explain and I hate that.

Update: after even more thinking and realizations, I came to the open-ended conclusion that things aren't so bad. I like to overreact....'tis the drama queen inside me trying to escape. I know that I've got the best thing in the world, and I don't want to lose that. Ben Folds tells me that I am the luckiest, and I would have to agree. I just hope I can explain myself without it being too late...

"It's like baby mama drama...without the baby...or the mama...so I guess it's just drama."

Things I hate:

`doubting myself and the greatest thing that's ever happened to me

`having zero control over my own feelings

`being scared to death about what's to come

`not being able to say what's on my mind when it's on my mind

`the fact that my face can't lie and I can't train it to lie for me

`feeling insignificant

`knowing that at some point in my life I have made someone else feel insignificant

`the fact that I think I have sociopathic tendancies

`feeling a certain way and not understanding it

`wanting things to stay the way they are and to never change, even though I know that is impossible

`doing something because I feel like I have to

`hear other people, who I know are fantastic, say that they are worthless

`thinking I know one thing, but feel another

`crying

`hurting someone I love

`having entirely too much time on my hands to think

`playing the "what if?" game

`screwing up

`Not being able to explain myself- ever.

I'm home.

Time to pass out in exhaustion on MY bed with MY pillows!

I hate hotels.

But I LOOOOOVVVVEEEE you! =)

Sometime this week I want to molest/be molested by all of you. If it's not all at once, I'm ok with that. One on one action prevents from awkward pauses....or something like that.

*pwing!*

Let's see, what do I have to say.

This vacation, so far, I would give it a five. People down in Orlando have sold their souls to Disney making things and people overpriced and cheesy. I think the people at Disney control the weather even. The clouds are way too huge and fluffy- all pretty and movie-like. When it rains, at the same time everyday, there's this overly dramatic thunderclap that scares the crap out of everyone.

Ruler of Disney: "Cue thunder....NOW!!" *KABOOM*
Visitors: *screaming in terror*
Ruler of Disney: *chuckle* "Damn that never gets old"

I found the Magic Kingdom to suck. I was cranky all the live-long day. It was not magical and I was not the happiest person in the world. I hate large groups of people. I especially hate large groups of people with accents. British people, I have noticed, have large nostrils and are mouth breathers. Mickey Mouse can bite me.
Animal Kingdom, on the other hand, was mildly enjoyable. We went on this Safari thing where rhinos and whatnot were just chillin' as we drove by. If we were stopped long enough, we probably would have been able to touch some of them. It was cool.
Sea World- also fun. It was laid back, and things weren't $400. I liked it.

Now, we are on Cocoa Beach- if you check a map it's a piece of land that seems to be only attached to Florida by a highway. Our hotel is AWESOME. It's right on the beach, and has free internet. Yay. We are also right next to Cape Canaveral where Kennedy Space Station is not far from. Ergo- we can see rocket launches. There was supposed to be one yesterday at 6, but the weather screwed it over.

Mom and sister= annoying as hell, but I'll manage. This week is about relaxation and alone time. Yay for books and a balcony.

E-mail me and tell me what is going on in your lives, because I miss you! sandy4123@hotmail.com

We have the internet at this hotel!

yayayayayay!

Ok, I think I've used up my time limit already checking my mass amounts of e-mails, but I will come back at another time.

I love you and miss you all!

I'm coming home Sunday!

woot

Disney SUCKS, just so you know. =)