The boy hair is growing on me. Maybe I'm attracted to myself in a creepy homo-narcissistic sort of way. Is that possible? Probably.

Have I creeped you out yet? If so, my job is done. It's Halloween, you know.

Last night was the busiest night of BATZ that I have ever had to work. It was a solid line from 5:30 to 8:30. We didn't close until 9:15 or so. It was nuts. Zach helped me in the gift shop. I took money and he handed out tickets. At one point, the computers freaked out so the line was backed up for even longer. INSANE. Luckily the crowd was pleasant. Had it been a Free Day crowd, I would have curled up, cried, and cursed the visitors with toe fungus and hemorrhoids. That'll teach them to give me sass! I was semi-sad that it was my last night of BATZ ever. Next year I'll be in Chicago. I'll come back to volunteer at some point, I'm sure.

After BATZ, Zach and I went to see Kill Bill. It was awesome! Violent, but awesome. It's not that I don't like violent movies, I'm just squeamish with all the blood. Watching it last night gave me an upset stomach, but I couldn't stop watching. Despite all the blood, it was artistic and wonderful. I'm definitely gonna see Vol. 2 and anything else that might follow.

Today at physical therapy, I felt inadequate. They upped my excercises to longer and harder things. (Wow, that sounded like the porn e-mails I always seem to get) I couldn't do these step exercises without wincing. It hurt like a mother f-word er. Just when I think I'm healed, they bust out with something that proves me wrong. Oh well, at least I don't have to wear that stupid air cast anymore.

Killowatts show tonight! YES!!!!

I have boy hair. It's REALLY short, and I don't much care for it. In fact, I think Jared Vogel and I have the same haircut. It looks hot on Jared, because a) it's Jared- he's hot, and b) he's a boy!! If I don't look like a boy, I look like a lesbian. I'm not that girly, but really- I'm a lot girlier than that. I want to have "cute girl" hair, not "I like cute girls" hair. It'll get better as it grows out, I'm sure. This is why I stopped going to hair dressers and just cut it myself. I feel all high maintenance too. I feel like I need to wear makeup and girly clothes to overcompensate for the boy hair. Too bad that'll make me look like a drag queen. Poo.

One week from tomorrow, I am going to visit Jessica and Stephy. It's gonna be a great time!! Jessica on Friday night/Saturday, and Stephy on Saturday night/Sunday. A weekend full of vaginas will be wonderful. Viva!!




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Awww.

*to fix for Erin. =)

I HAVE BEEN ACCEPTED!!!!!!!!!



High fives all around.

yay

I am friggin' giddy. Why?? I have my first interior design gig. Yay!!! Sarah Flemming is having me design and decorate her new room. Her family is building a house, and when it's done I get to work my magic in her room. It's most of the basement too. She asked me to help her with it over the summer, but I forgot about it until she mentioned something about it yesterday. She's gonna buy the supplies and pay me and everything. Rock on! She already told her mom, and even she's excited about it. This is awesome. I have so many ideas running through my head, and I even started painting a vase for her. I'm gonna rock this design game hardcore, yo. =)

I'm going to get my hair cut either tomorrow or Thursday. I've been cutting my own hair for almost two years now....I really hope they don't yell at me. If anything they'll yell at me for dying it so much. Yikes.

My ankle is doing much better. It's still a little sore, but the physical therapy is really helping. I still have to wear the air cast, but hopefully I'll be done with it this week though. It's starting to smell and I'm not sure how to clean it. Gross.

smelly feet

The wedding was not so bad. My cousin's wife seems nice, and he was really happy, so yay for them. It was sooo fancy though. The reception was at a casino. It was a good time because I got to see my favorite cousins, well- 2nd cousins. They're my cousin's kids- different cousin, not the one who got married, but his brother. Confused? You betcha! They're names are Bridget, Kaitlyn, and Daniel. Bridget and Kaitlyn are in high school, and Daniel is in 7th grade, but they're still so much fun. Kaitlyn is a typical high school girl, so she can be a little annoying, but Bridget is really cool. Daniel is hilarious. I haven't seen him in forever, so his voice is all deep now and he's really tall. Oh, how they grow up. Bridget and Kaitlyn have gotten hott too. They're so pretty. I mean, they're Brian Marley-standards hott. Too bad they're 17 and 15, and live in Kansas City. Kidding.... They're the coolest, and my favorites. I wish we could have visited more, but there was wedding stuff to be done. Dumb wedding. I plan on making a trip to Kansas City this summer to see them. Hooray!

Funniest thing at the wedding:

The best man sat with us during the reception- us being Kaitlyn and her boyfriend, Bridget and her date, my sister, my mom, and me. He was teaching the four youngins how to drink at a wedding. His spiel: "Before I was 21 at weddings, it was always my goal to find a way to get some alcohol. What you do is find the one guy who is drinking straight Jack Daniels, or something just as hard, and buddy up to him. He's usually an older guy who came alone. Sad, I know, but use it to your advantage. You don't have to wait long, because when he's drinking the hard stuff straight- he's already drunker than the rest of the crowd. Go to the bar and get a soda, then sit down and talk to him. Sometime during the conversation, top your drink off a little with his. He's not gonna notice, and if he does he's too drunk to care. Keep this up, and you should be buzzing enough to be satisfied. I know it's awkward talking to people you don't know, but once the technique is mastered, anyone can get drunk at any wedding at any age."
I lauged so much. I think he's told this before. It was like he was talking from an instructional video.

I don't have to work today! Viva!

I'm headed off to Kansas City, Missouri, in a few moments. Six hours in a car with my mom and sister.......neat. I hope we don't kill each other. Our "vacation" over the summer was hell towards the end. I remember the hell, I wonder if they do as well. My cousin is getting married to a bitchy woman who made him spend $10,000, that he didn't have, on an engagement ring. She also made him give up racing cars. Some women never cease to amaze me. If I ever get like that, I give everyone permission to pummel me. Zach can say something mean that will bruise my self-esteem, and the rest of you can pummel me.

Hasta luego, mis amigos. Muwah! (that was a kissing sound.....)

Harrington and I finally got a hold of each other, and we talked for a good long hour. Sonie, admissions counselor, really likes me and is gonna recommend that I get accepted. Hooray!

My ankle is still gross. I can't use crutches. I have physical therapy tomorrow....for a sprained ankle....huh?

Grant did not show up to class today. I was looking forward to "throwing down". I've never thrown down before. I would even have brought my crutches to class to jab him in the rib. Oh well- he's still a quacktastick fella.

Erica, Zach, and I got an 'A' on Ben's paper. Congrats to us.

Brian Marley thought Jessica Crump had a cute accent. Jessica Crump thought Brian Marley had a cute voice. Hmmmmm- too bad he's shallow. =)

Saddest thing ever- my sister threw out my Homer Simpson hand, holding a doughnut, that I made in Spanish class. They were the most beautiful chinos I had ever made. It was art, man, ART. Moment of silence for my Homer Simpson hand.


………silence………

I guess it’s ok. Jessica and I are gonna make piñatas over Christmas break anyway.

~wigglin’ like a whore~

I'm a klutz. I fell last night at BATZ, on an emergency Oatmeal Cream Pie run, and now I have a "sprain, ankle severe". I have this neat little thing called an air cast and crutches. I don't know how to work the crutches. Ask Zach- I'm probably gonna hurt myself worse on the blasted things. Luckily I only sprained (sprung?) it, and didn't break it. However, I was looking forward to having a bright orange cast that I could have decoupaged. Damn me for not even being able to break an ankle correctly.

Exciting news: Denali is touring with DEFTONES!!!!!!!!!!!! That is so freaking awesome. They are never gonna be in our area, but still- go Denali! What a great thing for them. Yay!

That's all I've got. I'm gonna go hobble my way along somewhere, maybe call Dan Davis for some pointers on crutch technique.

The first night of Boo at the Zoo was last night. It was a good time. Zach came with me and helped us get things started, then Brian Marley showed up later. We scared for most of the night, and Brian and I make a good team of screamers. He entertained us by knowing the choreography to "Thriller". He makes me giggle. The three of us then went to S&S where we met up with Ben, Melissa, Ashley, et. al. They left before we did, and then who came to meet up with us? JESSICA CRUMP!!!!!! She's so quacktastick. QUACKTASTICK!!!! Mike Hagan came as well, but he's a jerkface and not so quacktastick. =)

Something came up last night that was mildly irksome. I don't know why, but I think Ben's former crush on me will forever plague me. Just when I forget about the whole thing, up it comes again. He told Renee and Mindy last night that "the feelings were mutual, but I didn't find out until later, so I never asked her out." What?? Where did he get that idea? Yes, I will admit that I am a huge flirt, but ask anyone- I flirt with EVERYONE. Boys, girls, cats, dogs- I'm a flirt. I figure that I can make someone's day by joking/complimenting/giggling with/everything else that comes with flirting. No one ever took me seriously, except for him I guess. The ones I actually liked, I usually mentioned something about it to them. This always led to "you're a great friend, but that's pretty much it" situations. Zach is the only one who said, "I kinda like you too", and that's the best thing that's ever happened to me. My feelings for Ben were always in the great-friend to like-a-brother areas. Maybe he thought something was there because we are the same person put into different genders. That creeped me out sometimes, actually. Someday I will get away from this, but for now I guess it's still lingering in the background. Oy vey.

I got some Bright Eyes, and I'm kind of indifferent. I don't much care for his voice. I like the way the music is put together, and the lyrics are cleverish, but his voice is icky. I don't think I could listen to an entire CD of it. Maybe if I get more, he will grow on me. I guess I have my heart in Denali, Death Cab for Cutie, Roy G. Biv, and Copeland. I bet I have to be in a mood for Bright Eyes.

More BATZ tonight. I love it!

kris roe would show me a good time.


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Awesome!

So, I've been home and online two nights in a row. That's craziness right there.

I decoupaged my shoes. The right one has a picture of Vanilla Ice, "Rockin' The Suburbs", "Weren't ten years of the 80's enough?", and a heart. The left one has a picture of a girl blowing a kiss (to Vanillia Ice), "their vaginas are 'old school'", "weirdos", "another love song", "Where's my Death Cab for Cutie EP?", a picture of two naked people with X's over their genitals saying "Friend forever, lover never", and a star. They amuse me and I likes them a lot.

I got my Roy G. Biv t-shirt today. I'm going to wear it tomorrow and promote. I'll be the mad-crazy-coolest girl at RCC.

So, I guess the Cubs are winning stuff.

I don't care.

I applied for a job at RCC's bookstore. If I get the job, I promise to not be a Bookstore Nazi. I know how those bitches work, and I will overcome! I'll get a discount on things too, which I need for my expensive photography hobby. I doubt it'll pay much, so don't worry Mike Hagan, I'm still gonna apply at Walgreens. That, and they said it'll only last 3 months, but hey- money is money, baby, and I need it. I am also gonna take a test for RCC to earn $5, and possibly win $50. I'm a lab rat for something college-related. It's two hours long, so they should pay us more than $5, but whatever- I can splurge and eat food that day.

Stephy and Jessica come home this weekend. This makes me all warm and fuzzy all over. I am so excited!!! Jessica is gonna hump me right in front of the kiddies at Boo at the Zoo. Hey- most of the animals are put up, so something's gotta be doin' it. Might as well be my wifey and me. I'mahumpJessicaCrump. Mmmmboy! Hawt luhvah!!! Stephy and I are gonna have a nice talk over a bowl of ice cream and the movie Aladdin. =)

I got the new Death Cab for Cutie CD. It's so wonderful. They have a song called "Death of an Interior Decorator". I am destined to be one now- one that decorates, not dies in an ocean. Every song is like poetry with music. They don't have structure or a mass amount of repetition, and don't you dare ask them for a chorus. Fabulous!

Ending with a song:

"The Sound of Settling"
I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots
that my tongue has tied off
My brain's repeating: "If you've got an impulse, LET IT OUT!"
But they never make it past my mouth
This is the sound of settling
Our youth is fleeting, old age is just around the bend and I can't wait to go gray
And I'll sit and wonder of every love that could have been
If I'd only thought of something charming to say
This is the sound of settling

Post Cram Jam was a rockin' good time. I got to see people I haven't seen in ages. Erin, Terri, and Amy are still adorable, Suzie is my favorite, and Chrissy makes me shake my butt. I pooped out at the end, and, like I never fail to do, I dissapointed Chrissy who was driving back to see me. Sorry, friend. I lose.

Lee Fritz from Roy G. Biv e-mailed me wanting to know where to book shows in Decatur. I feel cool. =)

BOO AT THE ZOO STARTS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!

5-9 Be there!!! Yay!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE HAGAN!!!!!!!!!!!!




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Awesome!

I got a 100% on my portfolio.

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That's all I've got. I just wanted to brag. =)

Alright, so I can't go visit Stephy at all this weekend. One of my dogs, Bud, had a stroke yesterday, so he's now inside and we have to feed him by hand, and give him water through a tube up to twelve times a day. He can stand up, but everytime he tries to walk he falls over. Poor boy. To take him outside to go to the bathroom, we put a towel around his middle and help him walk. That's sort of like therapy for him too. The vet says that if we keep doing that, he should be able to stay up and walk on his own. Ergo- I have to stay home and tend to a sick puppy. His birthday was Monday, too. He's 16. That's elderly in dog years, but I still love him. We've had him since I was 4, so he's like my little brother. This makes me sad.

Something that makes me happy, though- I got my portfolio done for photography done today. We have to turn one in for midterm. Last night, Ron the cowboy labtech, got me some mounting board because I didn't have enough. I couldn't decide between two pictures, and he liked them both and told me to just mount both of them, but I didn't have any board left, so he got me some. He's a really nice guy.

Post Cram Jam. BE THERE!!!!

Zach and I went to see School of Rock last night. It was a great movie. I laughed, I grinned, I shook my butt. Good times. =) Go see it!

I took a nap on the carousel today, on one of the benches. It was only a ten-minute nap, but it was a nap. I had to run the thing for most of the day. I got a little woozy watching it spin around and around. It's really fun, though, because everyone is always smiling when they ride it. These two little old ladies rode it today too. They didn't wuss out and ride the bench, either. They rode the animals- a mandrill and a warthog. Cute! One of the carousel songs had a techno beat to it. I wanted to find it and play it again, but we have 10 CD's on shuffle. I wasn't feeling that ambitious.

Post Cram Jam is Friday. How on earth did that sneak up on us so quickly? It's gonna be a rockin' good time, though. The best part is that I get to see Chrissy and Suzie!!!!! I MISS THEM!!!! I may just molest them to mark my territory.

What?

Best thing I have read in days:

(From an e-mail from Harrington)
"We actually do not have a math requirement for our curriculum. The measurements that students do are repetitious; an advanced math is not needed."

THAT'S AWESOME!!!!! I am dropping that effing math class tomorrow. Done and done!


Second best thing: Roy G. Biv still exists. Not only that, but two members have e-mailed me back. I wanted a t-shirt, and they are gonna send me one. Yay! I wasn't crazy either- Lee WAS at the Denali show. He told me I should have said hi. =)

yayayay!

Alright, girls, I have some sad news. Due to conflicting schedules, I will not be able to go with you to visit Stephy. I'm really sad about this. I NEEEEED to get away! I'm going crazy. I was really looking forward to it too. Boo.... =(

In happier news, I'm definitely gonna go to the school in Chicago. They have sent me so much information- I got a fatty pack of papers today. I'm really excited about this. When I was applying for the UofI last year, I put it off and put it off, but this time around I am all about applying. I wanted to start filling everything out as soon as I got it. I'm taking my excitment as an extremely good sign. As for the math, I'm pretty sure I don't need it, but one of the admissions people is going to call me Friday and we will chat about it. I like that they are all up in my business. They aren't annoying about it either- they actually care about me and want to get in contact. I like that. =)

Other good news- today in photography, I turned in an assignment and my incredibly grumpy teacher (who is grumpy because he has an umbilical hernia) said, "Wow! Those are nice photos." That made my day. I did something else right later on, and he complimented me. I am all over this photography stuff. baBAM!! The kids in class were also asking me for help and stuff. That made my day. I was asking them for help with things too, which I think is good. I think we've all given up on our teacher and just use each other.

One more good thing- I'm getting the hook-up bug again, and the two victims are.... Jessica Crump and Brian Marley! I think they would be wonderful together. They are both fun as can be, and rock my world. I've told Jessica about my plan, but not Brian yet. Boys can be stubborn about such things, but everyone else in the world adores Jessica, so why wouldn't he?

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