I'm having a sad, I miss everyone weekend. I'm just not used to not having anything to do. I'm not used to not having friends. I mean, the last time I think I was totally out of luck for friends was my very first semester of college at RCC. I mean Stephy and Jessica were still around and Matt Parnell and I were still pals, so I wasn't that bad off. Also, Chrissy and Suzie were easy to get to. I think the thing that bothers me is that I can't leave so easily. There's a process to getting back home. I miss my car. It was my trusty steed (stead??) that was just so cute. I'll probably hump it when I come back home- for old times sake.
You know what else I'm used to? People who do what they say they'll do. I mean, if someone is like, "Hey, let's go to the movies on Friday" I can count on actually going to the movies on Friday. It seems as though the kiddies around these parts are full of crap. I miss bucket night fo sho.
You know what else I've noticed? I'm an inviter. If I have an event to go to and don't think that someone has something to do, even if they do have something to do, I invite them to come along. It's just the first thing that comes to mind I guess. I stopped with Andrea mostly because she has not once invited me to go anywhere with her when, back to note number one, at the begining she was like, "I was told to not walk alone up here, so if you don't mind going with me sometimes..." Of course I said sure because I'm a nice person. That "sometimes" has never come. I don't expect us to be BFF because we're really different, but still. Sometimes it's just nice to go somewhere with someone other than yourself.
Oh my goodness, speaking of Andrea, I have a rant to go on. Last night she made me suffer through
Waiting to Exhale. I agreed because it made me think of 7th grade and how scandalous the movie was at the time. Watching it now made me roll my eyes a whole bunch and heckle, so I did homework while we watched. Then, almost towards the end, Matt called her and that was the end of that. We were bonding for about a second and then a boy called- off she went in a cute skirt and plenty of perfume. I didn't want to be that rude so I left on the effing movie while she got ready, not knowing that Matt would be coming down to our apartment. He came in and that movie was on so I looked like I was actually enjoying the smut. Oy vey.
Then, this one will kill you, this morning I was working some more on my homework and Trading Spaces was on. She was working out for awhile and when she came in, I was in the kitchen, so she was like, "Can I see what else is on?" I say sure because I'm a nice person, and you will not believe what she turned it to. Lifetime. LIFETIME!! Some terribly acted movie was on involving a kidnapping or something. I don't know what it was, but I refused to watch it based entirely on the fact that it was on LIFETIME. I mean, that is the lowest of "women television" networks. I will watch the Oxygen channel, I will watch WE, but Lifetime isn't even worth a pause. Seriously! Needless to say, I took a shower and had to leave the apartment. Who the hell watches Lifetime and enjoys it?? Trading Spaces was on for the love of Pete. Um, we go to Harrington College of Design, not Bad Acting University.
My dad would have been 61 today. It's really hard to imagine my dad being in his 60's. I wonder if he would have had grey hair or wrinkles. I actually almost went to church today to celebrate his birthday. I just had this deep down feeling that if he were still around, Mom would be out of town this weekend, and I would have come home on Friday and he and I would have spent it all together, and then today we would have gone to church together and then out for breakfast. Then Mom would be back in the evening and Tammy would have come home and we all would have gone out for dinner for his birthday. As crappy as it may be, life goes on though, right? Maybe this is why I'm so freaking sad.
That is all I have to say, except that I miss you all like whoa.