Hi kids.

So, remember that job I hate? Suncoast? Yeah...I got employee of the month for March. I don't know where my mad skills are coming from, but I'm on fire! Every shift I've worked I've gotten one or more things that we're supposed to sell. One day I got 3 replay cards, 3 reservations, and 1 Entertainment Weekly. EW's are hard mothers to sell, too. I've gotten 3 for March. Wowza! My love for Suncoast is a battlefield. I feel ya, Pat Benatar. I feel you.

Tomorrow is April, which means that tomorrow is Grant's birthday! Heebie jeebie, that's exciting! That also means that my birthday is 12 days from today and Zach's is 30. April is an eventful month. Let's take a looksie:

Apr 1: Grant is 21. Yay!

Apr 2-4: visiting school in Chicago

Apr 6: Chicago again for an art trip

Apr 9: 2 year anniversary of my dad's death

Apr 12: I'M 21. WOOOOOOOT!!

Apr 15: Death Cab for Cutie show, also in Chicago.

Apr 30: Zach is 20. Wha cha!

The zoo also opens in a few days, which makes me glad.

You may have noticed April 9th. That's a big day, and you know what- this year I think it's going to be easier. Last year I could feel myself dreading it day by day, but this year it's not so tough. I know that I'm not going to go into the dark depression that I had last year. That was terrible. I guess that this means that I've "healed" or whatever they say and have slowly been able to move on. I still miss him so so much and always will. I still cry when something really significant reminds me of him. I still love him more than anyone in the world, but I've transitioned into life without him. I always wonder "What if Dad were still here? Would I hate my mother so much? Would I still have been going for the environmental bio thing?" I don't know. I just know that I love him and miss him.

This past weekend I went to Iowa to help my mother with a dog show. I was by myself and bored out of my mind. I didn't realize it until I got there, but that show was the last one that my mom and dad did together. I drove him up and dropped him off. It was the last time that we spent together for more than twenty minutes. A four-hour drive together was the last time I spent one-on-one with Dad. I thought about that a whole lot over the weekend. It made me sad and angry because four hours is not enough time. Especially when he was only going to be alive for a few more weeks. I regret not hanging out with him enough. Too much thinking gets me into trouble.

In other happier and funnier news, yesterday Zach, Jared, and I went to Radio Shack for them to get boring boy stuff. There was this creepy old clerk man who was lingering around us and stuff. I looked him in the eye once and he took that chance to be like, "I've always wanted to ask a woman after I read that article- does it turn you off to shop in electronic stores?" How was I supposed to answer that? "Yes, these two boys had me all hot and ready to go, but then they were like 'let's go to Radio Shack' and I was like, 'Well- no sex for you." What?!? I just told him that yes they did, they made me cranky. Then I scampered away as best as I could, but Radio Shack is small so his eyes followed me around the room. Freaky deaky. Then he ran Zach up, but took forever and said that their bags suck, "to put it in vernacular." What a weirdo.

That's my update for the week. Sorry it took so long.

...on the next Ironic Chewiness...

Sandra and family take a visit to her college for the weekend. Will they survive in the windy city? Will Sandra kill her mother? Stay tuned for the exciting conclusion!

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I don't know if that quite fits entirely, but I'll go with it. I think I would have rather had Pig Pen...he's smelly. =)



My sister is in my room right now doing some Tae Bo. There's this girl on the tape with a really sweaty crotch and I keep mentioning it to my sister. She shouldn't work out with me in the room. I ruin it for her every time.

I spent a lot of time with her today. She was kind of annoying. She kept saying stuff like, "Zach's your first boyfriend...you shouldn't settle down...you should keep your options open...you should be lookin' at all the cute boys...if you meet a new boy in Chicago...etc..." I got really irritated with it all. I said, "If I'm happy? Why ruin it?" and her response to that was, "Nothing lasts forever." What the hell?!? I couldn't believe she said that, so I stopped talking to her. RAR!!!

Her being so critical is why I don't like to hang out with her sometimes. I tell her she is, but she doesn't get it. Stop nit-picking me and get over yourself!

Even though we irritate one another, we still love each other and have to keep the other sane, because seriously- have you met our mother? Dang am I glad to get out of this house.


"I'll go with the mad men there, and pull my hair, cuz lunacy is everything I need!"

My mom has decided to build on to our house, so she and I have been cleaning out the shed in our backyard because it's going to be torn down. My mother kept every single homework exercise/assignment/coloring/paper I ever did from 1st and 2nd grade. I have no idea why. I found my "Clifford goes to Hawaii" story that I wrote and illustrated in 1st grade. The last sentence in the story was "We was excited!!!". Why didn't my teacher correct that? I also found another story about penguins, only I spelled it peguin the entire time. Silly teachers. One thing that I found that made me giggle all over myself was this thing we had to do about our friends. This was in second grade, so my friends at the time were Kellisa, Suzie, Sarah, Jenny, and Devin. (Chrissy wasn't in my class, so therefore she wasn't my friend. That's how our grade school politics worked, she was my friend in 1st and then again in 3rd...) Anyway, we had to write a sentence about why we liked them. Everyone's was pretty generic (nice/funny/etc...), except for Suzie's. Her's was "I like Suzie! She's a really sweet gal!" The fact that I used the word gal in second grade cracked me up. Who did I think I was? That probably wasn't funny to anyone else but me...wigglewiggle??

I got a fun 50's phone from Bergner's the other day. It's light pink and mod looking. It also has that old school ring. I'm excited about it. It was originally 60 dolla, but I got it for $19.99, bitch. I'm so thrifty it hurts.

A nerdy boy asked me out on a date at work on Wednesday. I'm not talking about Zach either. He had come in earlier in the night and I don't think I gave him any reason to come back. I think I just asked him how he was today, which is what I do with everyone. Whoa baby! He came back when we had about fifteen minutes to close and asked if we had Freaky Friday. Of all the movies! I was putting movies away, unintentionally where he was, so one time I had to say "excuse me", and that must have been his code, because he was like, "No, excuse me," so I smiled because I'm friendly like that, and with his voice all shaky he was like, "Um, I was wondering if maybe sometime you'd like to go out with me sometime...???" This has seriously never ever happened to me before so my first reaction was "Awwwww!". I had to have killed his self-esteem. I then told him that I had a boyfriend and that I was sorry. His reaction was, "Aw nuts!" and then he scampered up to the register and bought his Freaky Friday. I went to the back room and giggled a whole bunch. That's my story. =)

Zach, Mike, and I went to visit Chrissy in Champaign on Thursday. It was a good time, yo. I found a pubic hair in my tortellini. That was not good, yo. In the car we listened to the 80's and 90's CDs that Mike had made me. It made me want to wear Day-Glo orange and get a new wave hair cut.

"...take on me (take on me). Take me on (take on me). I'll be gone...in a daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyy"

Spring break was not long enough, and I came out of it cranky. Last year's was so much better. Woot to Chrissy and trips to West Virginia!

You know all those times I curse people with flat tires and such? I'm thinking that everytime that happens, they see the flat and are like, "That Sandra Goaley! I curse her with an ear infection!!" I get them so often that I think I need to stop cursing people.......whatever. I curse them again double with fifth disease, scabies, AND jock itch. Bring it on, bitch! Bring It On!!!

So, yeah- I have another ear trouble. It's a doosy, too. I got fancy ear drops and everything. They hurt me, though. I hope it's the "if it's burning, that means it's working" thing my mother always used to tell me.

...but if it burns when you pee, what's working then...??

For a scholarship for school I have to send them a room design. Zach's room is my template, so, because I'm a nerd, I'm using the Sims to help me. Don't worry- I'm not going to turn in anything I've made on it. With floor plans and such, I have to send a two page paper on the room. That's craziness, but I can hack it. It's due on May 28th, so I can't use Sarah Flemming's room, but I'm still excited about it. Woot!

I don't know if Operation Enamor was successful or not because I don't believe either party said a word to the other. Zach and I were cranky, so that could have been our fault, but they are also shy ones. I haven't heard anything bad, but yet I haven't heard a whole lot anyway. No news is good news?

wicky wicky wicky <----- I'm a DJ, yo.

Monday was a blast! We shopped, we ate, we bonded (bound??)... pure girly bliss. =)


I helped Zach write a song. Most of the lyrics are his, but I helped piece them together. He wrote most of the music too, but I also helped to modify. I feel all Yoko. Woot!

Saturday is Battle of the Bands at the Masonic Temple. I think that a million bands are playing, for only $7! That's a deal! It also starts at 5, even though I told Jessica 7. If you come at 6:30, I think it will all break even. I know that a lot of angsty high school bands will be playing, so this will be a day to test my patience. Maybe I'll invite all of their fathers to come along so they can hug them more. Perhaps I'll invite the jocks and all the pretty girls that never talk to them too. That will either start a massive punk rock fight, or it will help bring the world together. Angsty! Angsty! Angsty!

Sunday is Operation Enamor. Zach, Jared, Jessica, and I are going to see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind... even though I'm not finding it...oh! It starts March 19th. That's NEXT Friday. Hmm. Is anyone up for seeing Secret Window then? Johnny Depp...? We'll talk about it.

Today is the day I get to see my wonderful girls. I'm not sure what we are doing, but I'm sure it involves being giiiiirrrly. Especially Jessica and myself. She lives with boys, and I only see them- so this tang time is much needed.


Let's talk about The Sims, shall we? I'm addicted to the games. The last one I got was Makin' Magic, and it's absolutely fabulous. I can seriously spend a good part of my day playing this game and not even notice that the time had gone by. This game is the reason why I haven't been online as much. I think I need an intervention. It gets to the point that I think of my life in way of the Sims. For example- I think to myself, when going to sleep, "my comfort bar must be going up a whole lot right now". Isn't that creepy and weird?


Speaking of creepy and weird...you should check this out and make one of your own, I made one of myself, but it just isn't as cute as Jessica:

Jessican's cute face.

Her mouth is funny, but her eyes when they blink are lovely. Cutie pants!

So...the Ben Folds tickets are already sold out. Piss off. Sorry if I got your hopes up, but that's the way life goes, I guess. A big dissapointment all around.


Starboy had a show last night at Wake the Dead. It wasn't too shabby. Definitely better than their last show. Two more and they are over. I'm not gonna say that I won't be heartbroken, but I won't be. As an outsider, I saw the whole situation as a relationship where no one was all that happy, but stayed together for the kids. It was a "learning experience" as all guidance counselors would say.

At the show last night, I saw Ryan's friends Josh and Jake. Jake was the one who, long ago, wanted to "get up in it and hit it harder than De LaHoya". "It" being my vagina. Unfortunately for him, I liked Josh instead. I didn't tell him or Ryan that, but we ended up being pretty good friends anyway. I just hadn't seen him in forever, so it was nice. Jake had a REALLY trashy girlfriend, so I had to smirk at that situation. It always bothered me that I never learned Josh's last name. I'm going to have to ask Ryan when I see him next.

I still have to call Stephanie, but I'm pretty sure that a friend orgy is going down in Peoria at Suzie's tomorrow. No boys allowed! I'm excited.

Decatur smells the worst when it rains.


Thanks to BJ, we now know that the price of the Ben Folds tickets are $26. The tickets go on sale tomorrow, so whoever wants to go should raise their hands now. For more info go here: Star-Course.


Today I had my review for design, and Mr. Rocha told me that he thought I'd be a good interior designer. That's exciting stuff.

I'm going to visit my school finally the first weekend in April. I'm looking forward to it. I think that getting away- farther away is exactly what I need. I'm tired of Decatur. I'm tired of Richland. I'm tired of being at home. I worry about everything a lot though. I worry about not having any money or transportation. I'm not taking my car. I'm sure there will be times where I just want to come home and get away from Chicago. I think I'll feel sort of trapped. Another worry I have is about my friends. I don't see you guys enough now, so I know I'll never ever see you when I'm there.
I'm missing my girls right now. I'm going to go visit everyone next week because I have the time. I just read Suzie's blog...I miss the old days. I miss laughing for no good reason for hours and hours. I miss laughing and giggling so much that my cheeks hurt. For real- I'm coming for a visit.

Dear Suzie- Quotes. Prepare to giggle and giggle.
"Oh no! It says sex!"
"The cops'll think I'm drunk! I'm gonna get a DOA!"
"He's gay and married, so he's Gaaaary"
"Hypothetically speaking, if one of us were to hypothetically fall into a hypothetical creek..."
"What's this? The kama sutra of fine dining?"

Man, I was feeling mopey, and then I went back and read all those. I'm giggling and causing a scene in the library. Yay. I love nostalgia. =)

On top of missing my girls, I think I just miss fun human contact. I haven't seen nearly enough of Zach in the past two weeks. He works too much and has band things to do. I hung out with Mike and Brian last Friday, and that was fun, but I don't know. I'm pretty sure it's vaginas I miss.

Mike from the zoo called this morning. He wanted to know if I was coming back. My answer to that: HELLS YEAHS!!! Damn the man, save the zoo!

Ben Folds is coming to the UofI April 5th. Isn't that the most exciting thing ever?!? I don't know how much the tickets are, but hot dang! I'm happy.

That's the news of the day- take it or leave it.